Blue Curtains

Behind blue curtains lies a sailor that misses his mom,
A sailor who hasn’t seen her son in months.
Behind blue curtains lies a broken hearted husband,
A woman who just lost her father and couldn’t say goodbye,
An apprentice who feels frustrated
And a specialist that’s fighting depression.
Behind blue curtains lies a sailor who’s mom has forgotten her face due to illness.

There lingers that lost in space feeling,
Like floating numb into the abyss.
Feeling surprisingly different every day, not necessarily in the good way.
Behind blue curtains there are bursts of empathy, rage and sadness, all at the same time
And it doesn’t makes sense. It doesn’t makes sense at all.
Behind blue curtains there’s a sailor that wants to give up but keeps on fighting
Who keeps it all in and silently hates it
And cries hopelessly into the darkness.

Behind blue curtains the “Was it a good decision to leave for this” question arises
And “Would it really be worth it in the end?” pops in too.
Behind blue curtains it is remembered someone talked about sacrifice once
But failed to mentioned it might feel like a part of yourself is dying every day.
Truth is they didn’t forecast that behind blue curtains would lie a sailor who’s no longer the same person it was yesterday.

No way out

There’s no way out of this misery.

When you feel like your heart’s been ripped out and you were left to die out in the darkest alley of the world.

There will be no lights to guide you this time. You’ve reached your end and there’s no way out.

¤SUNNY¤

To the one I’ll never forget

I can feel the Sun. Butterflies flying inside of me. White clouds filling the bright blue sky above me.

The flavor of your lips is unique and unforgettable, making me want to stay in silent if it means tasting them forever.

The sound of your voice whispered into my ears makes me tremble, not of fear but of excitement by having you so close to me.

Your arms wrapped around me keeps me together like a whole entity, which will fall apart if you weren’t here.

Your eyes see right through me and into me. I am no longer invisible nor ignored.

Your smile brightens my darkness and I don’t live in fear anymore.

Your touch makes me realize I am alive. And for all of that and much more:

I love you.

You will always have a part of my heart that no one else will.

And if you ever have to leave and I never hear from you again, know that you made me feel young, beautiful and proud of being who I am, the real me.

The one I finally met, when I met you.

¤ Sunny ¤

PS: Never apologize for being who you are.